Touch sight taste like fire

Fri, 20 Nov 2009 00:57:15 GMT

One of the reasons why I love you and us is because we sing to one another in the wee hours of the morning just because we feel like it. You make me smile before I sleep :)

AND GUESS WHO'S GOING HOME LATER WHOOP WHOOP WHOOP WHOOP WHOOOOOOOOP!

I am very bored

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 04:51:13 GMT

I am so bored. I'm done with every single damn Accounting thing. Re-read whatever I needed to and re-did all the tutes and practice papers already. I am usually not so calm before a paper. Should I be worried? Or am I, for the first time ever in my life, really prepared? I'm not being complacent. I just don't know what else I can do. Meh. I've realised that this is the only exam that I've not lamented on how there should be more than 24hrs a day. Well done. First time in my 19 years.

Home soon! 10 over days I think. I get so restless sometimes while I'm studying cos I think about home. And every time I do I feel excited. Can't wait can't wait CAN'T WAIT! James has already planned everything :)

Also cannot wait to end my papers. All 4 in one week is kinda stressful but on the bright side I end way earlier than everybody else and I start and end my exams with my two best subjects (Accounting tmr and Calculus 2 on Fri). Wish all those back home were having their exams now too then our breaks would really coincide. Ah well.

Alright, think I should go do something productive. Like... revise for Macro on Tues. After Tuesday it's no more Econs for the rest of my life WHOOP WHOOP.

When one door closes, another one opens

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 08:03:42 GMT

Decided not to do an exchange anymore due to the complications regarding my Law subjects. Was quite sad about it cos I really wanted to do it. Fortunately for me, another even more awesome opportunity came in the form of an internship at KPMG. Just had my interview and I got it! Which I'm really pleased and excited about because KPMG is one of the Big 4 Accounting firms. Awesomeness! And, in exactly two weeks time I would have ended my exams. In three weeks time I'd be on my way home. Exciting stuff!

We all need Wings like these

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 14:55:45 GMT

I SWEAR I almost hyperventilated when I saw these. Sooooooooooo gorgeous!!!!! Gorgeous is an understatement. Credits to JAK&JIL

YYY just called me from London. She got my Tiffany pendant!!! :) Now I just have to wait till December to get it from her. Thanks Yvonne :)

Going home on the 20th, confirm. Whoopeedoo. Thank goodness my mum managed to get me a seat though it's rather late. In the meantime it's all about the books. And looking at pretty things when I take my breaks. And my weekly dosage of GG and 90210. And my constant cravings for Yong Tau Fu amongst many other things.

BREATHE & PERSEVERE

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 13:19:16 GMT

I have been studying and trying not to get distracted with thoughts about going home. Need to stop giving myself unnecessary pressure. I tend to do that though I always tell myself not to. Whatever it is I hope I get the grades I want. If I am as efficient as I think I can be, I should finish reading my notes and going over my tutorials just in time for the study break. Then it's one week to do practice papers. Exams the week after. Settle stuff. Parents arrive, off to Sydney. Home.

You know you know

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 10:16:57 GMT

Exams end at the end of the first week of the exam period!!! Awesomeness. But that also means I really have to start studying now. Must persevere, cannot give up!!!!

Eating strawberries with lots of Nutella now. Very nice.
Idk why but it has been pretty damn cold the past few days. Spring, what's happened to you? :( Hate the cold, can't wait for warm sunny Singapore! :) The cold is so bad that on Sat night my heater had no effect on my room temperature. It took me ages to sleep cos it was just so cold in my room!
Daylight saving starts again at 2am on 4th Oct. Sigh. Hate it when we're 3hrs ahead of Sgp and nice, 11 hours ahead of Ireland! Boohoo.

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 11:43:10 GMT

1. I'm having my extremely pseudo Spring break now. Lots of work to do hate it hate it hate it.
2. Drama in the apartment. Sick shit. I am traumatised. Enough said.
3. I don't even feel like shopping though my Dad has told me to do so. Just feel like I shouldn't be wasting my time on such frivolous activities. Im becoming a nerd/workholic/extremely boring :(
4. Decisions decisions decisions. SIGH. I need help.
5. I miss home terribly terribly terribly much. I want to go home NOW and see my parents and friends and dog and of course, James :( :( :(

One more week of Spring break, 4 more weeks of school, Swot Vac, exams... HOME. Seems mother long yet short at the same time.

James

Mon, 07 Sep 2009 06:35:05 GMT

When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, the one who slows it down

You always knock sense into me.

It's gonna suck when we argue, who's gonna knock sense into me then?

Hate goodbyes

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 16:41:16 GMT

Being away from home has undeniably made me appreciate my parents more. I was extremely happy when my dad surprised me on Wednesday. Cheered me up a lot! Had dinner with him last night and just now. It felt very heartwarming to just sit there and eat the good food that I normally don't get to eat here and enjoy my dad's company. Meeting him for lunch tmr then off he goes back to Singapore :( I feel very sad thinking about it. Hope I won't cry tmr. Nyehh, I should stop being such a cry baby. Melbourne has a very powerful effect on my crying. Gah.

Anyhow, very glad the week is over. 2 assignments down, 2 more and 1 test to go! Macro and ATA assignments are so much easier compared to BPA and Calculus has been pretty easy so far (well ever since my Math knowledge came back haha) so this weekend and next week won't be too bad. Clement has a table at Seven on the 4th. Very tempted to go though my Calc test is on the 7th! I have absolutely nothing to wear though. Purposely left all my clubbing clothes in Sgp so that I'll be really good here, plus my luggage simply had no more space.

Off to sleep now. It's almost 3 here. Feeling rather accomplished but also very tired cos 2 assignments are down and ATA is almost done and I did my laundry and ironing and changed my bedsheet and read my Econs textbook today. Goodnight all :) Hopefully I will wake up on time tmr and won't be late in meeting my dad.

Sigh 3 more months till I get to see everybody again :( no I am not going back in Sept, don't ask.

How now brown cow

Sun, 16 Aug 2009 15:03:48 GMT

To go or not to go back during the two week Sept break ? 18th Sept - 4th Oct.

The boy has accumulated 7 days of off. I can always do the tutes and assignments back in Sgp. Friends have all started uni but I can always see them after school/go to uni with them. Hopefully Daddy won't be overseas. If he is then at least I can keep my mum company.

But Idk...

How how how.

Happiest when I'm with you

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 08:58:41 GMT

Love you guys the most!

Stressed, becasue:
1. Macro test next week
2. Calculus 2 Assignment due 24th Aug
3. BPA Assignment due 27th Aug
4. Macro Assignment due 2nd Sept
5. ATA Assignment due 4th Sept
6. Caculus 2 test - 7th Sept

Which means I can only have my share of fun after the 7th. In other words it's been two weeks since I've been back and I've yet to have fun and I'll have to wait 3 more weeks before I can.

>:-(

K off to eat dinner now, Cindy and I cooked laksa! Shall watch some BBT too then it's back to work. Need to stop getting distracted by every single damn thing.

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 08:14:20 GMT

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

Fri, 07 Aug 2009 15:47:26 GMT

And it's no one's fault
There's no black and white
Only you and me
On this endless night
And as the hours run away
With another life
Oh, darling can't you see
It's now or never
It's now or never

I don't know what to say or feel

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 15:15:15 GMT

When will this world stop spinning?

Let's go

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 05:53:01 GMT

First week back in Melbourne. Think I'm doing okay though I was very very sad about coming back. Cried at the departure gate. Cried even more when my mum started crying. Held back tears in the plane. Barely slept during the flight. Tummy did a flip-flop when the plane landed.

I was a wreck on Sunday. Had breakfast at the airport before going to the apt. Was really tired and drained but I insisted on unpacking my 37.8kg luggage and doing my laundry and cleaning my room to take my mind off things and to get it over and done with. Then my parents called and I fought the urge to cry as I talked to them. Finished all my chores and unpacking and then I got credit and called James and that's when I couldn't hold back my tears anymore. Called my parents after and cried some more. Fell asleep soon after cos I was extremely tired. Woke up, showered then Dennis came over with dinner. Did our tutes. He left. Talked to James, cried again. Tried to sleep and finally did so at 3ish after tossing and turning a lot.

What a Sunday.

I hope this isn't going to be the case everytime I have to come back here. I hope it will eventually get easier.

Woke up at 8 on Mon for school. My mum and James both called to make sure I was awake and okay. Felt rather down after the call cos I could tell my mum was very sad, plus it was her birthday and I wasn't in Sgp to spend it with her. My eyes were also slightly swollen. School was a bore so my mind kept drifting. Thought a lot about home and here and I told myself that I would give myself till the end of the week to pull myself together - no more crying and no more extreme homesickness after this week.

And I guess I really did start to pull myself together after that. I have been feeling okay though I really do miss home a lot. I'm really thankful for the 1.5 months I had in Sgp. Think most people had 3 weeks to a month tops, so I'm really blessed to have that extra time. The 1.5 months have definitely softened me up all over again though. I say that not just because of Sunday, but also because of the difficulty I'm facing in adjusting back to life here. Like how Cindy and I put off cooking proper dinner till Tues (we steamed fish last night!), how I feel so nyehh about having to walk so much and having to do everything by myself etc. etc. All these little things don't seem really significant individually, but together they tell me how "soft" I am now. Sigh. Time to harden up again.

That said, I hope this semester will be fine. I hope I'll be able to maintain my average or do better. Hope I'll be able to focus despite having insanely boring and stupid subjects like Business Process Analysis. Hope my Math knowledge will come back to me or Calculus 2 will own me. Hope Accounting and Macro will be good too. And hope I'll be more thrifty, heh.

And hope time FLIES! 16 more weeks to go.

K off to take a nap. Havebeen having a most horrible headache the whole damn day. No idea how I survived school with it today.

xx
Nicole

Bitch, please

Tue, 21 Jul 2009 17:57:46 GMT

A little (okay actually probably more than a little) late but I've recently realised how it was silly of me to feel sorry for you all this while and now I just dislike you and feel somewhat disgusted at everything you tried to do to get what you want.

Okay whatever.

1.5 weeks left. There are still some stuff I've yet to do, and of course there are people to meet. Think the only thing that I feel accomplised about is that I've more or less eaten everything I wanted to. I've concluded that time with everybody is never enough. I had a great time with V, Del and Sam today. All the nonsensical things we say and do... I don't have such awesome people in Melbourne :( Needless to say, time with James is never, ever enough. Each day spent with James always, ALWAYS flies by and each time I am left happy, contented yet slightly sad that the day is over and I am once again one day closer to going back to Melbourne.

Life

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 16:26:57 GMT

"Sometimes you don't know you've crossed a line until you're on the other side and can't go back."

Why

Wed, 08 Jul 2009 19:02:57 GMT

It is 0238 hrs and I am up, as usual. I am so screwed when I go back to Melbourne since Melbourne is 2 hours ahead of Singapore.

Speaking of Melbourne... Look straight ahead, don't look back. But even so I am in the midst of trying to bargain with my parents for a later departure - like 1 week later.

Life is just too good here though it gets really boring at times. There is really not much to do here. When I am not in town/Holland/James' place (now that I actually think about it this is mostly where I've been if I'm not at home, nyehh), I am at home. My Home routine consists of being waken up by James in the morning followed by me going back to sleep, waking up in the afternoon, lazing around in bed either thinking/stoning/playing sudoku on the Twigpod, getting "lunch", reading stuff/using the laptop/watching TV (I am rather sad that I have no more cable in my room and that the only cable left in the house does not have Disney Channel, Nickelodeon and Channel 55 and 255 anymore), having dinner, playing with Chester, talking on the phone/using the laptop/watching TV, sleeping. Wow.

But still, I have everything here. Family, friends, the boy. Sometimes I really wonder why I chose to give all that up. But I also know there's no looking back and that I just had to make the best of what I have now. I just hope my parents will let me go back on the 1st instead of on the 25th. Sigh.

On a lighter note, I get to see the boy 4 days this week instead of the usual 2. Awesomeness :) Plus I got to see him just now :) My food poisoning also seems to be gone. And I just painted my toe nails purple, yay.

Oh V came over yesterday and we baked cookies which didn't turn out as soft and chewy as expected. Oh well. Haha we should just stick to cupcakes.

Thoughts lately:
There are only a few people that I really do care about.
One of the best things about James is that he is a boyfriend and a friend.
Time is passing very quicky even though I don't do much.
Why do I have food poisoning?
How I am not so close to certain people anymore.

K I am going to try to sleep and forget that I am kinda hungry and am itching to play mahjong.

Home

Wed, 24 Jun 2009 08:59:51 GMT

K I'm trying really hard not to worry about something very worrying now so I thought I type this to keep my mind of things.

Got home on Saturday afternoon after a dramatic morning at the airport and a suffocating 7 hour flight during which I slept so much and caught Confessions of a Shopaholic and read about the stock market and refused to eat or drink anything cos I didn't want to risk taking my mask off. Was extremely happy to see my parents and James at the airport and the boy got me a flower! :)

Went home and was very very happy that Chester still recognises me! My dog is awesome :) Ate and unpacked a bit before James and I brought Chester out for a walk. James is very amused by Chester haha.

It was such a warm afternoon! Sweat glands started working again after 4 months. Got back after quite a long walk and then James and I unpacked my really heavy and bulky luggage. One luggage full of clothes and what not and another one full of food.

Took a nice shower with awesome cold water and then off we went for dinner at Hyatt with my parents for my coming home cum Fathers' Day dinner (damn this recession). Dinner was good even though my mum told James a tad too many embarrassing chilhood stories about yours truly -.- Ate A LOT. James said the amount I ate was "so unbelievable". What to do, I've been starving for four months plus both my parents and James commented that I am very skinny :(

Stayed till the end of the buffet haha and then my parents went home while James and I went to Secret Spot #1 hehehe. Sam and Rachel were in town so we went to find them for awhile. Then Ariel came and almost fell cos she was so shocked to see me hahaha it was so funny cos we could hear the click-clack of her heels while she was trying to find her balance.

Chilled at Lido and gossiped (oh how I've missed all this bitchiness and funny stories) then James sent me home.

On Sunday it was Fathers' Day! James was coming over so I got James to help me buy my Dad's favourite carrot cake. Got my Dad the new iPod shuffle too. It is really tiny!

Hehehe

My chubby dog

Showered then James and I went over to his place cos the boy had a surprise for me. I must say, James Fu, you are Amazing ;D

His Golden Bayonet and my Golden Boy :)

Hung around till 1ish then we went to town. This is when my tummy had a mind of its own again. Had Far East chicken rice before watching a movie then we raided the Taka food basement before proceeding to Adam Road for dinner hahaha James says I'm a pig. Whatever.

Well he got darker while I got fairer

I had an awesome weekend!!! Thank you :)

On Monday I met Sheryl and Eunice at Holland! Got my brows threaded. Browhaus at Holland is still the best. The guy asked if I wanted to thread my upper lip too then after scrutinizing my upper lip he said "don't need". Nice to know I have no moustache haha. Had laksa and otah for lunch but I wasn't full after so I had the drumlets at BK followed by good ole' Provence bread. Amagawd.

Sheryl and I headed to Forture soon after for zicha hahaha oh dear. Had a long dinner at Forture before heading over to her place too see Chicky. He is still as horny as ever. Sheryl please find your dog a girlfriend. My leg will not do.

Stayed home yesterday cos Del ps-ed me. Family dinner at night at my favourite duck rice stall where I ate two bowls of rice. Sigh. Home today too cos it's been raining. Hate work cos it's taking away the majority of my friends and the boy is in army so I am soooo bored :( But as bored as I am, it definitely feels great to be home. Here in Singapore I have awesome parents, a wonderful boyfriend and friends I can never find elsewhere.

And I pray that things will be fine with you.

Blessed

Sun, 07 Jun 2009 17:03:00 GMT

When things get really hard, I think of what I have to be thankful for and suddenly things don't seem that bad.

I am very grateful for the wonderful parents I have who work very hard to support me and to give me most of the things I want. Wonderful parents who are kinda strict at times, but looking back now, I can see why.

I am so thankful to have such awesome friends. People I know I can count on, people I can trust, people who love me for who I am, people that make me smile. I am so thankful for the true friends I have.

And lastly, the boyfriend.

"You are definitely the girl I love the most"

The boy is so much more than I asked for. I never knew I could fall so hard for somebody, and so quickly too. Never thought I'd shove logic aside this easily and let my heart decide. Many probably thought we were crazy for getting together like less than two months before I had to leave. Plus, it's not like we've known each other for long. And you know what, sometimes I think we're crazy too haha, but I guess you can't time love; love just happens. And I still feel so blessed everyday to have James in my life. Really glad that we gave each other a chance. Hmm I am so in love with you, James Fu. Heh.

Exams start tmr since it's already Monday. 12 more days to home! Ahh 12 more days before I finally get to go home to all the lovely people mentioned above.

Getting so sick of being in this swine flu-infested place which also happens to be cold :( very glad V and Del came to visit me in April cos I wouldn't want anbody to come visit me now. Swine flu capital Melbourne - not cool.

I CAN'T WAIT.

Happiest Girl Alive

Sun, 24 May 2009 15:47:31 GMT

Just now the boy and I were texting then he sent me this:

"...and oh. I hope this makes you smile. I stubbed out my last stick tonight. I'm done with it. I wanna quit. Not bringing any to camp so this is gonna be a hard week but I wanna do this. Because baby, I love you. Thought you'd wanna know :)"

From "I'll never smoke in front of you", to cutting down, to this, without me even asking, yay :)

Other things that have been keeping me happy lately are the 5-7hr conversations with the boy. Not the best time to have such long conversations when exams are so near but oh well :) think this whole long distance thing has somehow brought us a lot closer. How ironic. Other happy stuff include the fact that home is 26 days away. Awesome :)

Exams in 15 days and I am so unprepared omg. Sigh, it's so hard to just sit there and study. And I really miss studying at Guthrie with the Guthrie Gang.

K nvm. 26 days to home!!!

I cannot wait to go home to you

Sun, 17 May 2009 08:32:26 GMT

I'm shitass tired from the very little sleep I got over the weekend but it's all worth it. I don't know how but the boy still makes my heart melt and gives me butterflies even though he is so far away. I guess that's what love does to you hehehe.

Two new things to add to my list of regrets:
1. Should have stayed sober at that Mambo then I wouldn't have pushed you away (really no memory of this at all) and we would have danced together as you intended :(
2. Should have gone for Mimolette, then I would have had my very awesome date and my Christmas would have been absolutely perfect cos the boy would have been able to carry out his Really Sweet plan :(

Well, we got together eventually anyway! And that's what counts :)

23 days till exams. I NEED TO START STUDYING PROPERLY.

On the brightside, 34 days to home!

3 2 1 you'll fall in my arms now

Thu, 07 May 2009 16:13:25 GMT

It's been ages since I've updated this thing. Have been busy busy busy.

1. V and Del came during Easter so that was cool. That burnt a hole in my pocket though.
2. My parents came over for three days for my birthday. I am 19, so old so old so old :(
3. School is becoming nyehh-ish with all the work. Really glad ARA and Econs assginments are over and done with and so will QM once the 13th is over.
4. Law test again next Fri sigh at least Law's not too bad.
5. I'm finally getting an SLR I just need to get my ass back to Sgp
6. Exam timetable is out

I end on the 19th so I'll be back on the 20th!!! Which is a week earlier than expected so whoohoo. Will see if I can come back after July. How important can the first week of Sem 2 be right haha okay actually Idk

7. I am very very proud of the boy :)
8. I finally have my mahjong set but no time to play -.-
9. James - "eh swine flu spread to Australia you better go get a jab or something" so I did and then I had fever haiyo
10. I NEED to catch up on my sleep it's lack of sleep accumulated since...Easter break
11. V, SAM, TALK SOON EH

Okay that's all shall go sleep now QM at 11 tmr then need to go down to the SIA office at Collins to settle my flight details then off to get myself a birthday present :)

I WANNA GO HOME

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 15:47:57 GMT

Thank you for always being there for me, over the phone, every single day. It means a lot to me, especially during this week.

Over the weekend I trekked 11.5km up and down a mountain called The Pinnacle in my ever-so-reliable Topshop pumps, stayed at a budget hotel, saw so many stars (I could even see the whole Milky Way), and missed home terribly.

Lately I've been so homesick to the extent that I have been so distracted. I actually cried over the phone whilst talking to James Mon night. I've not cried over my homesickness in so long. I just feel so tired from being away from everything. I hope V and the rest really do come during Easter. I hope I'm not getting my hopes high up for nothing. I guess I could always fly back during Easter but I just feel that once I go back that's it. My resistance will totally break. So I guess I just have to suck it up and wait till July :( :( :(

1st April today. Went to watch Wicked with Marc Jean and Dennis. It was really quite awesome. Horrible yet good April Fool's prank by Lydia.

Marc and Jean go back tmr. It's been great having them here though I couldn't spend a lot of time with them. I feel really envious that they get to go back to Singapore.

And sigh, another anniversary missed.

Cannot let you get to me

Sun, 22 Mar 2009 14:54:47 GMT

Finally weighed myself today at Hoi Yan's place. After all the eating I've been doing we both expected me to put on weight. By weight I mean like one or two kilos. Lo and behold, I've put on... 0.1kg HAHA JOKE -.- There was so much anticipation for nothing. Seriously what is wrong with me. But yes, I am now 44.9kg -.-

Life here has been fine though I've come to the conclusion that I will never stop feeling homesick. My parents have offered to fly down here for my birthday but I don't think it's worth it so I'm probably gonna tell them no.

Fell sick on Thursday. It was such a warm sunny day and I spent it at the apartment. Haiyo. Woke up with a fever so I didn't go to school. Speaking of school saying "school" just sounds so weird. It's such a Singaporean thing haha. Have been eating chocolate and fried food and lots and lots of chilli despite the terrible state my throat is in. I could barely talk when I woke up this morning. Lozenges has been my best friend. I just hope my throat doesn't get any worse cos the medical system here sucks. Really should stop eating my chocolate chip cookies, chilli and fried food.

Went to church this morning then Hoi Yan and I went a bit mad at the supermarket. Laguna, this Asian grocer, has so many instant pastes! Wow, technology. Bought sambal paste for sambal kangkong I will try it out soon. Hopefully it'll taste good! There was a Greek festival going on so we went to check out the food haha had some pastry thing with chocolate it was awesome :) Went over to her place after to study but I ended up taking a two hour nap haha. Dennis came over in the evening and we cooked dinner and watched CSI.

Marc and Jean arrive in a couple of hours time :) So yay, this week is gonna be more interesting. Have more or less finished all my assignments so yay, I can go around with them.

Can't wait for March to come to an end then it's April which should pass quite fast since there'll be Easter break, then May which will be my birthday and many other people's birthdays. Proper studying has to begin then too cos exams are in June. Then it'll be June! Exams for a month then I'll be homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :) :) :)